Hallucination

Hallucination

There's someone there

It's got to be true

There's someone there and it's got to be you.

My father I'm seeing

Is this really true

Got me feeling like I'm hallucinating

Haven't seen my father in years

So I'm really hype to see him

I run up to him, arms real wide

What's that on my face? Yes it's a smile

I jump up so he can grab me

But then I go right through him

I fall to the ground

Now my whole life is in ruin

I'm sitting on the ground pouting

Feeling like I'm climbing up a mountain

With a thousand pounds on my back

And it ain't never stopping

Thought he came back for me

But it was just a ghost

Yea, that ghost got me

Cuz now my heart is toast

I don't even know what to do

Man I'm so confused

My thoughts are roaming places that I ain't

even choose.

That's why I went to drugs and used

To get away from my thoughts and

feelings of my abuse

And it's not just with my father

It's with my mother, too

The stuff that we went through

was really out of the blue

Man the street's been eating us alive

Since the age of five

I gave my hopes up a while ago

Cuz I knew we couldn't survive

Man my life is tough

Yea, we had it rough

It's like those streets are eating us and

They can't get enough.

When is it gonna stop

I wish I had a time so I can look

At the clock and figure out when we

Gonna get off the block

Cuz I'm getting tired of going back to back

I want to know when we're gonna have

A stable home so we can sit back

And relax straight facts.

Let's get it

But I know it ain't gonna stop

Cuz we been on dis ride going back

To back since twelve o'clock

I turn around

Look at my mom like what we gonna

Do

Ma can you please say something

Ma what can we do

But she's just looking straight in my

Eyes like she ain't got no freaking

Clue

Like she don't know what to do

Like she don't know what she puttin us

Through

Got me sick to my stomach like I'm stuck

With the flu

No wonder we living in poverty

And it really bothers me

Mom ain't doing nothing

We sleeping all up in a hotel lobby

But pause

My mother is my mother

Even though she got us in the gutter

I still love her like no other.