Friday, January 31, 2020

Vincent Van Gogh




Vincent Van Gogh


I may be trapped
In this dark place
But that doesn't stop the stars
From shining extravagantly

I may not be able to dream
When I close my eyes
But that hasn't made me blind
To the wonders of life

I may be alone
Unable to survive
But looking at this Starry Night
I feel alive

Inspired by Van Gogh's Starry Night


Lost in Love





Lost in Love

lost in love
can't reach
watching you go away
just like sand in my fingers
I try to scream and cry
but you can't hear me
tears running down my face
I just don't want to lose you

Inspired by Van Gogh's Self Portrait

I'll Walk


I'll Walk


I'll walk forever
I'll walk for a cure
the cure for all cancers
I'll walk for the hopeful
all of our hopes that we would love to fulfill
I'll walk for all the stories
all the stories that we could tell
I'll walk for a prince
for when he could come with his courage
I'll walk for a new world
where there's
no cries
no death
no pain
no discrimination
I'll walk forever

Love Falls Like Rain









Love Falls Like Rain

rain outside
driving alone
on the way to nowhere
trying to feel something
like love


(Inspired by listening to
Barber's Adagio for Stings)

The Inside


The Inside


People askin' me if I'm ok
I say, "Yeah, I'm fine". But really
I'm just hurtin' inside.

Stop telling me to open.
I don't want to.
I don't trust nobody.

Let me lie and let me show
everyone else that nothing's
wrong on the outside.

Let me believe that I'm a cold
person on the inside.

On the inside I don't want
to talk. Let me observe
and play with my thoughts.

Why wont you believe that
I'm a horrible person?

I look miserable and mean.
Why wont you believe it?
Don't talk to me or look at me,
I'm too broken to be seen.

I cuddle up in my blanket
from the cold on the outside
but shiver from the coldness
in my heart.

I don't need anything. It
hurts me every time.
Don't feel bad cause
I'm a cold person on the inside.

In My Mind It's Always Winter


In My Mind It's Always Winter


I
I've never liked the winter
couldn't stand the cold
with wildly wicked wind
and snow in an endless flow
warming up my toes
wishing for the summer

I've never really liked holidays
couldn't stand my family arguing
my family's just always on edge
mom would send me out in the snow
I would be told to shovel or play
so many freezing memories

II
I sit in my cell
my mind, it races
my thoughts are overtaken
by a wintry holiday I liked

you brought me in
with a smile on your face
hope in your eyes
then I entered a magical place

laughter and love
jokes and decorations
cooking and helping
no one was arguing

and they gathered around the table
smiled and welcomed me
so many introductions, I'll never forget
I love winter

III
I smile because of you
because of me
because my heart is for you
I can't even breath
we are apart from each other

IV
we wear masks of happiness
spill our tears through each letter
our souls intertwined and torn
my heart broken and bruised
your love reaching for me

V
you share your love
I can almost hear your voice
as I read your hurt
feel your longing
see your hope
resent myself

VI
I'm sorry I'm here in a cell
I'm sorry I've locked up your smile
Death, my friend, enemy, prosecutor
threatens to make this my reality
but my mind, it remembers
it remembers a winter I love
the way our hands intertwined
the way you said the most important words
the way you made me love holidays
the way our love is eternal
the way I now love the winter





Friday, July 19, 2019

Nothing But a Mutt


Nothing But a Mutt


I am the "What are you?"
the "Where are you from?"
I am white, Spanish, African, Indian
I have a white family
I have black and Spanish too
In the place I live, white is an honor
while blacks are only "hoodrats"
My family is both superior and inferior
All my homies are getting shot
White people are the shooters
You see, I have no true identity
My category is undefined
But it doesn't really matter at all
All non-whites are grouped together
Neither side will claim me
I'm too tainted by the other
Tainted by my preference
Or lack of preference
There's nothing worse than an unknown girl
Other than an unknown girl in love with a girl
I am seventeen years of defiance
of unnamed mutt
of another colored girl in jail
I am alone and isolated
Addict going nowhere, another statistic
I am white, Spanish, African, Indian
How about you?