Depression

Depression

Every waking day you feel

hopeless and without inner fire

knowing only desperation

happiness, your lone desire,

dances away and with it takes

all hope of you ever coming back

to sanity, to family

to everything you ever knew.

Schizophrenia

Schizophrenia

You're of two minds, it's insanity.

You hear the voices, they urge you on.

Telling you, demanding of you,

everything you know is wrong.

Stubbed Toe

Stubbed Toe

The pain

it overwhelms your mind.

The pulsing agony

it makes you blind,

Rage at the source

it consumes your soul.

Your wrath

is impossible to console.

Sanity

you no longer know.

Curse the world

you stubbed your toe.

The Beast

The Beast

The rasping, gasping evil tone

The source of evil the heart of stone

A need to raze a love of death

The presence of it takes your breath

The monster with it's grotesque form

A face despised, withered, and torn

You cannot think, you cannot run

Chance of escape is slim to none

It closes in and moves to kill

It seeks excitement but you stay still

Your consciousness begins to fade

Your fate is set, the deal is made

You cease to breath, you see the end

The beast begins to tear and rend

You drift away and leave your mind

And everything you knew behind.

Survival Short Lived

“Survival Short Lived” - DJ A.M.

A crash in the night

A shot in the dark

A flame in the sky

You walk away against all odds

But you allowed the needle to play God.

Message to My Godmother

Message to My Godmother

That girl in the mirror

daughter of San Juan

made of sunshine and sugarcane

looks like my mom

She used to run weightless

Time a perfumed bottle

hanging from her neck

Manana a song

she made up the words to

while she skipped

until the day she stopped

caught the toothless, squirming bundle

heaven dropped into her arms

and gravity kicked in

Her life took a new spin

This screaming gift did not

lead her to dream places

or fill all her empty spaces

like she thought

Silly C------, she bought into

Miami high

That love is mostly what you get

instead of what you give

and what it costs

like the perfumed bottle

ripped from her neck

and sent flying to the ground

The crashing sound

of years lost

shattered in her ears

and new fears emerged

from the looking glass

Sometimes I wonder

if I'll ever see her again.

ADDICTED

I am addicted.

I am addicted to you.

In my addiction, my life is filled with wonder.

In my addiction, I am glad to feel loved by you.

I am addicted.

I am addicted to you.

In my addiction, I hate to think about being without you.

In my addiction, the real me becomes curious and blissful.

I am addicted.

I am addicted to you.

In my addiction, betrayal comes in the form of evil.

n my addiction, I struggle to not think about you.

I am addicted.

I am addicted to you.

In my addiction, I am hiding my worries about you.

In my addiction, I’m in a constant battle with loving you for life.

I am addicted.