In My Mind It's Always Winter

In My Mind It's Always Winter

I

I've never liked the winter

couldn't stand the cold

with wildly wicked wind

and snow in an endless flow

warming up my toes

wishing for the summer

I've never really liked holidays

couldn't stand my family arguing

my family's just always on edge

mom would send me out in the snow

I would be told to shovel or play

so many freezing memories

II

I sit in my cell

my mind, it races

my thoughts are overtaken

by a wintry holiday I liked

you brought me in

with a smile on your face

hope in your eyes

then I entered a magical place

laughter and love

jokes and decorations

cooking and helping

no one was arguing

and they gathered around the table

smiled and welcomed me

so many introductions, I'll never forget

I love winter

III

I smile because of you

because of me

because my heart is for you

I can't even breath

we are apart from each other

IV

we wear masks of happiness

spill our tears through each letter

our souls intertwined and torn

my heart broken and bruised

your love reaching for me

V

you share your love

I can almost hear your voice

as I read your hurt

feel your longing

see your hope

resent myself

VI

I'm sorry I'm here in a cell

I'm sorry I've locked up your smile

Death, my friend, enemy, prosecutor

threatens to make this my reality

but my mind, it remembers

it remembers a winter I love

the way our hands intertwined

the way you said the most important words

the way you made me love holidays

the way our love is eternal

the way I now love the winter