"..."

“. . .”

I ask myself is it all because

of me

that I had many chances to be

forever free

But I was just scared of how the

world would look at me

I was just caught up trying to be

like the guys in school wanted to be

Just really trying to hide who deep down

I wanted to be

But I felt fear like I was still

weak

So I wanted strength and joined the

football team

Really didn't get to play so in 10^th I

decided to not make it a dream

So I began still trying to be a “cool kid”

and started doing the wrong things

Skipping class and school

Which I never thought I had the

guts to do

But that feeling of rebelling was the tool

to make me forget about my past

As much that didn't last

Cause god don't like ugly

So things began to move into my path

Began to look like a fatal

Crash

Seeming like the time just rewinds

to the moments that I wish I never had

Reason as a child I was always sad or mad

Believing nothing not even love or happiness

ever last

So I just began to admire the things

that always last

Which was pain

Until it really hit me and my

dark heart began to rain

Stuck on what to do if I even

had a chance to gain

real feeling because I needed

a new way

Hiding from myself was just making me

hate my name

Then my life had changed

when a girl I thought was like the

other ones but definitely made my

heart raise

Was scared at love at first because I

thought it was just a game

But then I seen she was sticking by

my side through our crazy maze

So now I know there's so much faith

In this world for me

Having my freedom taken away

Is just another big story with

a new beginning page.