Life does not Stand Still

 

Life does not Stand Still

Once the door opens to release me

a battlefield will rise

a barricade of challenges

as endless as the skies

a sea of roaring waves

no Moses to divide

choices for the making

on which I must decide

with enemies to fight

so many different sides

I must drive very straight

or else I might collide

Once the door opens to release me

there will be no more talk

there will be no more second chances

I have to walk the walk

no more lame excuses

no more mighty lies

no more beating around the bushes

no holding things inside

So once the door opens to release me

I know all that will come

I expect to see dark times

so I am grateful for the sun

But once that door has opened

and I know it will

I must keep moving forward

for life does not stand still

Vincent Van Gogh

Vincent Van Gogh

I may be trapped

In this dark place

But that doesn't stop the stars

From shining extravagantly

I may not be able to dream

When I close my eyes

But that hasn't made me blind

To the wonders of life

I may be alone

Unable to survive

But looking at this Starry Night

I feel alive

Inspired by Van Gogh's Starry Night

Lost in Love

Lost in Love

lost in love

can't reach

watching you go away

just like sand in my fingers

I try to scream and cry

but you can't hear me

tears running down my face

I just don't want to lose you

Inspired by Van Gogh's Self Portrait

I'll Walk

I'll Walk

I'll walk forever

I'll walk for a cure

the cure for all cancers

I'll walk for the hopeful

all of our hopes that we would love to fulfill

I'll walk for all the stories

all the stories that we could tell

I'll walk for a prince

for when he could come with his courage

I'll walk for a new world

where there's

no cries

no death

no pain

no discrimination

I'll walk forever

Love Falls Like Rain

Love Falls Like Rain

rain outside

driving alone

on the way to nowhere

trying to feel something

like love

(Inspired by listening to

Barber's Adagio for Stings)

The Inside

The Inside

People askin' me if I'm ok

I say, "Yeah, I'm fine". But really

I'm just hurtin' inside.

Stop telling me to open.

I don't want to.

I don't trust nobody.

Let me lie and let me show

everyone else that nothing's

wrong on the outside.

Let me believe that I'm a cold

person on the inside.

On the inside I don't want

to talk. Let me observe

and play with my thoughts.

Why wont you believe that

I'm a horrible person?

I look miserable and mean.

Why wont you believe it?

Don't talk to me or look at me,

I'm too broken to be seen.

I cuddle up in my blanket

from the cold on the outside

but shiver from the coldness

in my heart.

I don't need anything. It

hurts me every time.

Don't feel bad cause

I'm a cold person on the inside.

In My Mind It's Always Winter

In My Mind It's Always Winter

I

I've never liked the winter

couldn't stand the cold

with wildly wicked wind

and snow in an endless flow

warming up my toes

wishing for the summer

I've never really liked holidays

couldn't stand my family arguing

my family's just always on edge

mom would send me out in the snow

I would be told to shovel or play

so many freezing memories

II

I sit in my cell

my mind, it races

my thoughts are overtaken

by a wintry holiday I liked

you brought me in

with a smile on your face

hope in your eyes

then I entered a magical place

laughter and love

jokes and decorations

cooking and helping

no one was arguing

and they gathered around the table

smiled and welcomed me

so many introductions, I'll never forget

I love winter

III

I smile because of you

because of me

because my heart is for you

I can't even breath

we are apart from each other

IV

we wear masks of happiness

spill our tears through each letter

our souls intertwined and torn

my heart broken and bruised

your love reaching for me

V

you share your love

I can almost hear your voice

as I read your hurt

feel your longing

see your hope

resent myself

VI

I'm sorry I'm here in a cell

I'm sorry I've locked up your smile

Death, my friend, enemy, prosecutor

threatens to make this my reality

but my mind, it remembers

it remembers a winter I love

the way our hands intertwined

the way you said the most important words

the way you made me love holidays

the way our love is eternal

the way I now love the winter