Twin Doors

Twin Doors

I see a door

It's the color of coal

At it's side there is another door

It's the color of snow

One to temptation

One to salvation

I am stuck

With either door comes new opportunities

But one's filled with joy

The other with scrutinies

One's full of sin an blasphemy

It's twin holds love, peace, and tranquility

And now comes the question

Which shall I choose?

My Friend

My Friend

All I see is white walls

They're there when I wake up

And when I go to sleep

They stare at me with a stone cold expression

They laugh when I cry

And mock me when I am down

But yet they are my greatest friends

They listen to my troubles

And all of my struggles

All of my irrational thoughts

All of my happy thoughts

And sometimes I wonder

Am I going insane/

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I think I'm going insane

Stuck between 4 walls that feel like a cage

I can't keep up with these thoughts in my brain

Pushing me to do wrong when I'm trying to do right

I can't let 'em win so I continue to fight

In the light is where I wanna be

not the darkness

My old way wasn't cuttin' it so I chalked it

So now I started from the bottom up

And I won't give in or even let 'em up

I keep them grounded like a bad child

They try to put me down but I still smile

And ayo thoughts, I know we've gone the mile

But I'm a change man so you'll be gone

A while.

The Right Shoulder Man

The Right Shoulder Man

I love him because he helps

me challenge all my sinister

thoughts.

He accepts me with all my sins

and my faults.

He leads me away from

the temptation to

achieve salvation.

He shows me the

Good Orderly Direction.

This can only be one person.

The man on my right shoulder.

Nature is Calling

Nature is Calling

Nature has always been a beautiful thing.

When it comes to the burgeoning of trees

the singing of the birds

or the buzzing of the bees.

With the dulcet sound of the stream

the sun in the distance

in a beautiful Shangrila dream.

I'm a zealot when it comes to an adventure.

Visiting forests is my biggest goal.

The nature there is garish

it will always be in my soul.

The extraordinary beauty of gigantic bears

claw marks on maple trees

where they left their matted hairs.

Rotted out trees that have fallen

the dead leaves and weeds

the wind is calling.

All the sweet little animals that are at peace

eating and drinking all day

hearing the squawk of a bunch of geese.

The bright blue sky wherever you go

by being intrepid you will be affected

and want to watch bright stars glow.

Nature will always be on my mind

I will be orgulous either way

because the wilderness is very kind.

Make the Move

Make the Move

I can't take it back

but I gotta keep moving

and grooving.

Only thing I got up in my hands is

making better improvements.

I gotta do it

cuz I know I wanna get better.

Max up out dis place

Move on with my life and get up

out the center.

So I'm reaching for my destination

using God as motivation.

Told me I could do it

so I took His word no hesitation.

Ain't no one gone stop me

I'ma get it like I'm Rocky.

Beat up on these people stocky

running through the field I'm cocky.

Make the move.

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I had to work to get to where I wanted

to be never thought that I could

rap or put rhythm to a beat

now I'm here and I made it it was

all up to me

couldn't let nobody put me down

or let them stop me

Throughout my life I had some people

telling me I couldn't do it

But I proved them wrong

once I picked that mic up I started

spitten my song

Realized that I had talent

so I stepped up in the booth

Once I stepped up in the booth

started spitten nothing but the truth

once I realized that my rap game

could take me somewhere in life

I stopped wearing that bulletproof

and picked up the mic.

Hallucination

Hallucination

There's someone there

It's got to be true

There's someone there and it's got to be you.

My father I'm seeing

Is this really true

Got me feeling like I'm hallucinating

Haven't seen my father in years

So I'm really hype to see him

I run up to him, arms real wide

What's that on my face? Yes it's a smile

I jump up so he can grab me

But then I go right through him

I fall to the ground

Now my whole life is in ruin

I'm sitting on the ground pouting

Feeling like I'm climbing up a mountain

With a thousand pounds on my back

And it ain't never stopping

Thought he came back for me

But it was just a ghost

Yea, that ghost got me

Cuz now my heart is toast

I don't even know what to do

Man I'm so confused

My thoughts are roaming places that I ain't

even choose.

That's why I went to drugs and used

To get away from my thoughts and

feelings of my abuse

And it's not just with my father

It's with my mother, too

The stuff that we went through

was really out of the blue

Man the street's been eating us alive

Since the age of five

I gave my hopes up a while ago

Cuz I knew we couldn't survive

Man my life is tough

Yea, we had it rough

It's like those streets are eating us and

They can't get enough.

When is it gonna stop

I wish I had a time so I can look

At the clock and figure out when we

Gonna get off the block

Cuz I'm getting tired of going back to back

I want to know when we're gonna have

A stable home so we can sit back

And relax straight facts.

Let's get it

But I know it ain't gonna stop

Cuz we been on dis ride going back

To back since twelve o'clock

I turn around

Look at my mom like what we gonna

Do

Ma can you please say something

Ma what can we do

But she's just looking straight in my

Eyes like she ain't got no freaking

Clue

Like she don't know what to do

Like she don't know what she puttin us

Through

Got me sick to my stomach like I'm stuck

With the flu

No wonder we living in poverty

And it really bothers me

Mom ain't doing nothing

We sleeping all up in a hotel lobby

But pause

My mother is my mother

Even though she got us in the gutter

I still love her like no other.

Special Kid

Special Kid

A very important

birthday poem!

Each family needs

a person, someone

friendly, fun

and smart.

A fellow who's got

lots of charm

with courage in

his heart.

A cheerful sort,

ambitious

easygoing.

Handsome, too...

Each family needs

a guy like that.

Hey, wait a sec

that's you!!

Love and Hate

Love and Hate

Hate

It corrodes your insides

It poisons your heart

Makes you yell, kick, and fight

But it can be cured by only one thing

Love

It is hate's total opposite

When you love you see the beauty of

Many kinds

When you hate you see life through

closed eyes

When you hate you fail to love

And when you love you see the

Hate

They are like night and day

and the world needs both

Waiting for My Moment

Waiting for My Moment

I did what I had to do

I proved what I had to prove

Is there anything more that I have to lose

I'm going to the edge

I hit rock bottom falling from a ledge

I'm making my way to the hedge

Take it to the head

Soon you'll be back to your bed

Is what they always said

But I'm tired of the lying

Tears on my face from crying

They don't know that I'm really trying

To make an effort to go through a metamorphosis

By passing tests and all the other courses

But being pulled by forces

In each and every direction

I'm starting to lose affection

So pay attention

To the words that I'm spilling

I'm willing

To spare my people from the killing

I need to be the change I want to see in people

Everything that's happening is lethal

I just want to live peaceful

But everything has me moping

Like bad blood spilled from an omen

I'm just waiting for my moment.